I have not updated this blog in nearly two months.
my apologies. now, since then I've...quit mcdonalds. hurray! transistion from a mcjob to... another mcjob! this time, at tim hortons. rock on, and so forth. I quit about a month ago, when tim hortons offered to hire me. that made me happy. the hours are better (which doesn't say much, but still).
my last blog post, that was the far past. my last paragraph, that was the near past. now, on to the present.
it's the beginning of september, school starts in 2 days. I'm going back to engineering at malaspina. grades sucked last year, I'm trying to make them not suck now. I still am interested in engineering, so changing majors just isn't something I want to do. mommy still wants me to be an electrician!
I still work at tim hortons. yesterday, I worked my last shift of fulltime work. from now on, I work weekends only. I have 2 3-11 shifts next weekend. those are alright shifts, the uber-bitchy people get off work at 3, and everyone left is actually cool. except (this is a spacer where an incriminating name would otherwise go!), who's too perverse to be cool. I'm sorry man (or woman, for the sake of vagueness, but it's a guy), but you're just too something or other.
(Blank) is gone, down to university of victoria. he misses friends (that's us kiddies!), he misses but will never again want to see other friends, and is heading into the beginning of the year with a serious, kinda negative stream of comments. but I'm not worried about him. he did the same last year, and he gained a large number of friends that he's going back to now. he'll have fun, in small doses, he'll work hard and it will pay off, and overall he'll be happy and swollen with pride, like a lion fat and rollable after eating more than it's own bodyweight in raw meat.
I'll miss him, he's my best friend despite living elsewhere and having other friends more huggable and helpful than I. he's going on to better things though, as he deserves, and I'll just have to work through 8 months of bitchy harrasment andheavy study loads, to oneday follow in his footsteps (as it were) down to uvic. and I know I can, and will, do that.
blogging really eases my mind. it gets facts and feelings out in the open, without drama, as they belong I guess.
on the subject of my life in nanaimo: my friends... what a mess. (blank) still has feelings for me, I'm pretty sure. she doesn't say anything, and I don't say anything, and we still hang out sometimes, but there's this awkward tension that I don't know what to do with. as before, I think I'll keep doing nothing. It can't be ignored, and I know no way to deal with it other than to stop being her friend. and that's not worth it.
(blank) is leaving to uvic too, although she was always kinda nervous around me anyway, I never knew if she really thought of me as a friend. I don't entirely blame her, if she doesn't. let me tell you a story, dear reader. one time, (blank) came over to my house to see me. socialize, hang out, y'know. now, (blank) isn't much on carrying conversations, and the only conversations I'm passable at are the kind the other person carries, ala doctors visits and meaningless akward "so, how are you? *cough cough*". as a result, we sat, and I didn't know what to do. so, I panicked out and shooed her out of my house. it was in instinctive thing, really. I don't know if she thought it was because I didn't like her, or because she was wearing such funny clothes, or maybe even if she saw it exactly as it was. whatever the case, we never really were close. and that's sad to me. I worry about her to this day, although for other reasons. did she really quite smoking? will she ever be a friend of anyone else in my group of friends again, or will she go off to uvic and never look back?
(blank), (blank), (blank) and (blank), well, there's really not much connection between them and me anyway. shame, but we were just never close. I really don't have many friends I'm close with, just (blank) and (blank). all these blanks are names of people that they may prefer I not name or link to each other in a public forum, btw. you probably figured that out by now.
I haven't said all I've got to say, but I think that's enough for now. till the next post, which should be soon...
posted by Murray @ 7:42 PM
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